Why.

Why is this so damn hard?! It's like every time I slip up with eating I tell myself, well you'll just have to do better next time. And I DON'T!! For something that seems so damn simple, it sure is hard.  My roommates and I are planning on going to some on-campus fitness classes 3 days a week starting tomorrow....maybe this can get me on track.....who knows.  I keep thinking things are going to work and they don't.  But I know exactly why:

                                 I am my own worst enemy in this fight.  To get to my goal, I need to fight                                                                                                                                                                 myself.

Just some motivation

Starting off good!

So I have decided how I would like to try going about losing weight, and it includes not only an awesome book I found at the store called the Shred Diet, but also I found an awesome yoga website I hope to keep taking classes from!

The past few weeks have been very hard for me, personally: I have been in college for going on the fifth year now and I am so ready to be done!! I feel like I go through quite a few mood swings, most of which find me down and in the dumps.  I hope that becoming healthier will allow me to keep myself out of these depressed phases and help my moods overall!

Today's lunch was pretty awesome!

Baked tilapia with edamame and water! Delicious!  

A new start

I have decided to start this blog over again because it seems like in the past when I have posted on here I just wasn't ready.  I wasn't ready to change, I wasn't ready to take my own health and happiness on and improve myself for the better.  But I like to think that I'm ready now, I don't know this for sure of course, but I have lost around 4.5 pounds in the past week and in a way it hit me.  I can do this.  This is the first time that I've seen results (no matter how little) since I gained all this weight after high school.

So hopefully it is my time now.  My time to finally take my life into my own hands and see what I am capable of, because I'm pretty sure if I try my hardest, it can be the most amazing time of my life.

First I'll post a recent picture of myself to remind me why I want to be healthier and fit.  But in addition, this picture will also have the main reason why I want to be healthier: for my wonderful boyfriend of 1 year, Ian.

 I am not completely happy with the way I look in this picture, but that's okay.  It should be motivation for me.

So hopefully this will be the last new start, and the beginning of the rest of my life.